Sunday, May 9, 2010

something to remember

he turned several streets before ours just to let the girls listen to the Taylor Swift song just to make them happy, even though he hates it

Friday, May 7, 2010

N'oublie Pas...

A: Do not sell yourself short.

B: Seek balance - extremes provide the most excitement but no stability

C: Relinquish control - you cannot control every aspect of your life and you definitely cannot control others

D: Slow down - let things come as they may; its not always your time

E: Don't get bored so easily - look for something interesting even if you think there is no substance to be held

F: Let people in - its okay to let your guard down a little bit more, but with that remember balance, don't get consumed with letting people in and conveying yourself. people will understand you as they come.

G: Be content with where you are, and the 'you' will follow happily.

H: Try to see the good in all situations - it always exists and if you can see it, the stress of any situation will diminish.

I: Think before you speak.

J: You don't know everything - there is always another way, another interpretation and another something to learn.

K: You aren't perfectible - you will always have flaw, some you can change, others you cannot. Again, this is about control, don't be so hard when you fail and don't quit before the finish line, because 'whatever, its chill, I don't care' is just a front for being afraid to fail.

L: Be who you are, don't worry about who you need to be - I'm not who I think I am, I'm not who you think I am, I am who I think I can make you think I am.

M: Don't get caught in the details - look past the leaves to the trees.

N: Get to the bottom of your feelings.

O: Pick your battles wisely - you can't be great at everything, or always be right; you can be happy, or you can be right.

Les idées de ma exposition

1: Life in a Box - 50+ antique empty frames hanging on one wall [frames]

2: Un Soirée/Not without me - 10-20 plaster hands suspended in dramatic scene with wine glasses. spill wine dripping off chaise lounge (white, antique, victorian) onto the floor like a murder scene, with one silver antiques mirror on the wall [glasses, hands, chair, mirror]

3: Winds of Change - watercolor and acrylic on canvas, mountain with shadowed woman standing on top, red scarf flapping in the wind, cloudy, rainy, torrential and harsh. trash at the bottom spilling to the floor and scarf coming out of the painting with sheer cloth suspended straight out of the canvas [multimedia collage, trash, scarf]

4: Self-portrait - redo self portrait but with bigger dimension, better mechanics and actual mirrors [tank, color, mechanism, mirror]

5: Inner workings of a restless soul/Futility - Labyrinth with no end; installation maybe or 3D wall piece. [labyrinth]

6: Light at the end of the tunnel - [light, train, body]

7: Soixante-Sept/In the age of cryogenics... - [tube, old, computer, hand, cords, mirror, projection]

8: You - [cloth, coffee, cigarettes]

9: Life's Lessons - mixed media collage

10: Discover your amplitude - [giant woman, small world, average]

11: my sine curve - [sine curve slowly moving, movie of death]

12: The Archer - [arrow, broken heart, shattering]

13: Fading - girl as chicken wire person being blow away into pieces

14: One Definitive Moment - triptych, girl kneeling, rying, arm bleeding from razor on the floor - Broken/self-realization moment - still kneeling but interested in something in the distance - Moving out and moving on - standing determined

15: Desperation - [bars, beautiful scenery, reaching for the word escape]

In the beginning...or is this the middle

So the idea of "Un Auto-Portrait D'Ame En Désordre" began as the theme to a documentary style book I wanted to begin writing, which was really just a collection of thoughts, experiences and interviews. An overall concept of life and the goals and philosophies that shape it. Much of this began in my moleskine and on my mac. Now that I have decided to go digital, I am uncertain if I should include the past - and in effect drudge up that which is best forgotten - in order to give the whole story, or do I let those chapters of my life lay between the pages of good old No.1 and begin again, with the same intentions, only a new shade of rose colored glasses than were previously in style? So much of before shapes the after, how can I lay that time to rest and still feel like I am being true to the effort of 'Sanity, Innovation, Communication, Documentation, Visualization, Evolution, Auto-portraiture, Chaos and that never-ending list 'Des Choses N'oublie Pas'?"

I think I will put it back in its box.